thanks for the bday wishes!
Yeah, it wasn't too bad, mostly just uneventful.
I've been thinking about how much to use this platform, and especially for posting. Using FB more again.. it's just so easy, though sometimes I think about trying other platforms, I don't often like signing up for new programs.
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Health report of January:
Waaaaaay better than last January of last year. Small sharp bursts of pain are still happening, they are new in my life: If you think I got heart surgery, and everything was horrible even after the surgery, you are wrong. I had mostly a very reasonable time after my surgery, but last year was unbelievably horrible, and it was a year of several in a row that weren't great, but last year was seriously the worst.
What I really hate is how non rational people are. My life is already cruelty for some problems I have, and everyone acts like it's ok to put through worse, basically meaningless-ly.
I am not really super happy about being alive, because I don't feel like I have enough to be happy about. This is not a good life, and it easily could be better with stronger societal inclusion: like a job, or at least an income. I should absolutely be on disability. I sometimes like that I don't have the label, but my pain levels particularly... I can't understand why it is sometimes considered acceptable for my life to be what it currently is and has been for a while now.
I've been thinking about how much to use this platform, and especially for posting. Using FB more again.. it's just so easy, though sometimes I think about trying other platforms, I don't often like signing up for new programs.
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Health report of January:
Waaaaaay better than last January of last year. Small sharp bursts of pain are still happening, they are new in my life: If you think I got heart surgery, and everything was horrible even after the surgery, you are wrong. I had mostly a very reasonable time after my surgery, but last year was unbelievably horrible, and it was a year of several in a row that weren't great, but last year was seriously the worst.
What I really hate is how non rational people are. My life is already cruelty for some problems I have, and everyone acts like it's ok to put through worse, basically meaningless-ly.
I am not really super happy about being alive, because I don't feel like I have enough to be happy about. This is not a good life, and it easily could be better with stronger societal inclusion: like a job, or at least an income. I should absolutely be on disability. I sometimes like that I don't have the label, but my pain levels particularly... I can't understand why it is sometimes considered acceptable for my life to be what it currently is and has been for a while now.