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Social addiction and what is work.
Dec. 3rd, 2023 07:20 pmDon't feel well. Had a terrible day. Did the best I could to make the most of it, and was able to get a bit accomplished and attempt to.. who knows what.
Reality regularly seems like nothing more than a response mechanism. Everything is so in tune, it's as if it's all completely natural in the most unnerving ways. On rare occasion, there are sounds that happen which sort of jolt my system. A surprise, that makes me flutter - semi feels a bit healthy!
These social chambers, I think it be best to walk away from them - completely Amish, why. I don't want to do that, though it seems like I could imagine others think it would be good, and I don't know why.
Maybe because I'm using equipment that I can't build? That's why I think it would be great to leave. I'm so tired with generally few social outlets.
Walking around in the real world goes ok enough, though I'm never quite great at making new friends, and most of the old ones have decided that apartheid-ship is good thing.
I tried asking today: "I guess it is that most members of society see me as a drug user now, and call Japanese my drug, because having more than one way to say something is a crime?"
Then, native Japanese speakers and myself? Have you ever had a non native speaker friend, etc? My 20s felt pretty nifty after all the bad stuff, for a long while.
Never been so perfect.
Reality regularly seems like nothing more than a response mechanism. Everything is so in tune, it's as if it's all completely natural in the most unnerving ways. On rare occasion, there are sounds that happen which sort of jolt my system. A surprise, that makes me flutter - semi feels a bit healthy!
These social chambers, I think it be best to walk away from them - completely Amish, why. I don't want to do that, though it seems like I could imagine others think it would be good, and I don't know why.
Maybe because I'm using equipment that I can't build? That's why I think it would be great to leave. I'm so tired with generally few social outlets.
Walking around in the real world goes ok enough, though I'm never quite great at making new friends, and most of the old ones have decided that apartheid-ship is good thing.
I tried asking today: "I guess it is that most members of society see me as a drug user now, and call Japanese my drug, because having more than one way to say something is a crime?"
Then, native Japanese speakers and myself? Have you ever had a non native speaker friend, etc? My 20s felt pretty nifty after all the bad stuff, for a long while.
Never been so perfect.
