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sennashi_dorei) wrote2025-06-01 05:18 pm
sennashi_dorei) wrote2025-06-01 05:18 pm
Turned out to be a pretty great day!
I did about 1 mile of walking, almost surprised I did that much. Last Fall, I did 10 miles in one day, didn't create pain, but my energy level went way down after it. I tend to think that about 10 miles a week is a pretty good goal. I was planning on doing a long walk, because I woke up early, and felt up for it.. but decided to cut it short and headed back early. I woke up feeling pretty great, went for a walk, came back, and instantaneously had this attack of something horrible. I started falling asleep, and I think I have mentioned before this place of "disturbed consciousness" like.. I am falling asleep, but it is painful to do such. It has happened maybe 5-10 times in the past year? I have had a seizure before, and it scares me that I might have a seizure again. And I like to reiterate: I was not born epileptic, I'm not even diagnosed epileptic. Doctors put me on a mental health medicine that gave me an allergic reaction which was a seizure, several years ago. As if my life wasn't horrible enough as an HSR, everything is just regularly getting worse.
Meanwhile, how the hell am I supposed to get these "disturbed consciousness" things to go away? I would love it if they would just go away on their own, but I just have no idea.
So I finally fell asleep again, and it did become comfortable!! I slept for 2 more hours, and then woke up feeling all better, so just a very short and extreme 'not feel well' session.
Spent the day hanging out con mi kazoku. We had a very nice time, I did just a few origami pieces. After departing, I went to the park for a short while. Now it's the end of the day, and I'm just winding down.
Something fun for you: Did you know that HSRs can still drive? I'm blown away by it myself.
I regularly think that there are efforts being made to take my license from me, but I also got my license more than 5 years after my surgery. I'm pretty sure that the police officers that arrested me last year, arrested me because they don't think HSRs should be drivers. I was driving when I was arrested, I pulled over by the side of the road, and they pulled up behind me and arrested me, they also broke my car window. I told them that I was an HSR, and they expressed no concern. Do you have any idea what hell my life is? And they put me in jail for at least 5 days, they are definitely criminals.
I sorta wish I had the mobility program. They made slight efforts to get me on that program recently.. I went to another physical health doctor who continued to mostly discuss mental health, and gave me a mobility form... ah well.
I would prefer to just be healthy, that would be great. But I'm not convinced that science is currently advanced enough for HSRs to return to even 80% of a full health bar. Maybe it has happened for others, but I don't think it has happened for me. Oh well.
Meanwhile, how the hell am I supposed to get these "disturbed consciousness" things to go away? I would love it if they would just go away on their own, but I just have no idea.
So I finally fell asleep again, and it did become comfortable!! I slept for 2 more hours, and then woke up feeling all better, so just a very short and extreme 'not feel well' session.
Spent the day hanging out con mi kazoku. We had a very nice time, I did just a few origami pieces. After departing, I went to the park for a short while. Now it's the end of the day, and I'm just winding down.
Something fun for you: Did you know that HSRs can still drive? I'm blown away by it myself.
I regularly think that there are efforts being made to take my license from me, but I also got my license more than 5 years after my surgery. I'm pretty sure that the police officers that arrested me last year, arrested me because they don't think HSRs should be drivers. I was driving when I was arrested, I pulled over by the side of the road, and they pulled up behind me and arrested me, they also broke my car window. I told them that I was an HSR, and they expressed no concern. Do you have any idea what hell my life is? And they put me in jail for at least 5 days, they are definitely criminals.
I sorta wish I had the mobility program. They made slight efforts to get me on that program recently.. I went to another physical health doctor who continued to mostly discuss mental health, and gave me a mobility form... ah well.
I would prefer to just be healthy, that would be great. But I'm not convinced that science is currently advanced enough for HSRs to return to even 80% of a full health bar. Maybe it has happened for others, but I don't think it has happened for me. Oh well.