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sennashi_dorei) wrote2024-10-20 08:00 am
sennashi_dorei) wrote2024-10-20 08:00 am
I don't have to be here, but I am.
Sometimes more than others, I definitely feel too stupid to be using the tools that I do.
I hate the sirens, they go off so regularly, and between the trauma of having been incarcerated unlawfully in combination with my unappreciation for the frequency level (I think)... It's like a constant threat. Sometimes I argue, it's like I'm being asked to permanently live in an MRI machine.
Every now and then, there will be bouts of time where they are not going off, and the silence can be overwhelming too.
Though usually with no sirens, I feel way more comfortable than otherwise.
Today, I'm here because it feels like a thing to do. I keep wondering if and or when I may leave and would I come back.
I hate the sirens, they go off so regularly, and between the trauma of having been incarcerated unlawfully in combination with my unappreciation for the frequency level (I think)... It's like a constant threat. Sometimes I argue, it's like I'm being asked to permanently live in an MRI machine.
Every now and then, there will be bouts of time where they are not going off, and the silence can be overwhelming too.
Though usually with no sirens, I feel way more comfortable than otherwise.
Today, I'm here because it feels like a thing to do. I keep wondering if and or when I may leave and would I come back.
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Are you currently homeless, hospitalized, or in the carcerial system? Or is there some other reason you don't have options about your living circumstances?
I'm not owed answers, of course; it's yours to decide what to say about your life.
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