Anything other than pain.

Feeling great today mostly. Some desires to stretch, but it will be a day of monotony. My focus on pain makes me feel useless. I get to do things sometimes, but they feel like very small things. That geometry book was awesome. Going for walks in nature: one of my favourite things to do! Going adventuring,, learning is the only way I'll really get to where I'm going, but I don't feel like I do enough of it, and it all feels so isolated, my endeavors.

Yesterday I did 16,000 steps while waiting to see the doctor! They weren't super helpful: this whole "pain can't be seen" thing, I think is a real struggle. Other than the pain, everything seems pretty great. But when it gets bad, it gets horrible, and all anyone can think to do, is try to insult me. I'm just thinking to myself: "You have a person shot with a bullet, and you think insulting them is going to fix the problem?" Do you want to be the person that compares nervous system damage to a bullet wound? Because that is who I am. I'm certain that the person with the bullet wound is in more urgent need of medical attention.. but even that.. I think is a usually, but not necessarily always case. Sometimes I ask myself: "Do people die of pain?" And I'm pretty sure the answer can be yes. I don't think I'm anywhere near that level, thankfully.. but I really didn't imagine that I was still going to be not taken seriously at the hospital I went to yesterday.

Today, I'll be going out.. I'll do my best to make a fun time, but I'm very annoyed with people who keep insulting me, while they're likely annoyed that I'm insulting them too. I call mine self defense, and I'm a little done right now. Sometimes, even if something true, it's like: "why bother?" Calling out some things is just rude, I think. I'm a little done with how rude everyone is: You name call me, I will name call you back. Yep, still a little kiddo.

Hyperion: a Synthwave album review

Hyperion the album

I was trying to think of something fun to talk about, and it seems like media is just what folks do. I guess there are people that do role playing characters too, I'm not sure I'll ever end up doing that one. I figured just a link to an album, why not.

I would love to write an album review, but how does one even go about doing that, especially if it's synthwave? I've read some album reviews of older songs using older instruments, where they might talk about each instrument individually, or maybe talk about the content of the lyrics... Synthwave is just a keyboard? I like this album. I listen to several synthwave albums, sometimes I like to listen to them, and I want to listen again and again, just to get familiar with them, who knows why, it's just a thing to do. This is an album that I have listened to quite a few times. There are other albums too. I listen to some music that isn't synthwave also, but for now, I'll just stick with this.

For a while, I was really doing what I could to stay away from youtube. I probably wrote about this a while ago, but I'm not really doing that as much now, though I don't often find much content that really appeals to me. Bandcamp is a great site for music too. I'm often looking for more websites to check out regularly, there aren't a ton of them, and as you can tell, staying on topic is no problem lol.