Fear of kidney stones

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Don't have much to say today. Every day has some problems, and I just try to call them minute details and do the best I can to make a good day of it.

Chest pains are definitely not a minute detail, so those days are just wretched beyond belief. Sometimes just times.

Today, I have no idea what my plans are. There's several options for things to do, but nothing feels like necessity, and that is actually very nice in it's own way.

I've been considering attempting to make 5 mile walks a daily goal perhaps even more than 1 day a week. According to my pedometer records, that actually is what I did last year around this time, so, not that big of a deal I guess.

Studying has been continuously enjoyable.

Being excluded from society economically has definitely not been.

Being locked in hospitals and knocked out of consciousness against my consent continues to be both a crime and a point of trauma.

But I am finding nice things to do and have happen, even if I'm having a difficult time talking about it.

"What's the point of talking about something pleasant if you aren't getting paid for it?"

Ah, you might actually want to, but I do think there is a point in talking about unpleasant things, and technically speaking, I consider attempts at resolving problems to be both productive and positive, which means that I'm nowhere near as negative as you probably think I am.

But, due to the social inequalities that are being made of my life, you could and perhaps should hold yourself responsible for how miserable things are going for me. The argument is basically that members of society are obligated to take care of each other.

"But all you do is rant about heart surgery, Japanese, and social injustices!"

Have fun.

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