Dec. 1st, 2024

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Because apparently, people that I thought were friends are instead arguing that dying in the streets is ok.

I can't wait to die.

I fell asleep with my eyes hurting whether they were open or closed. I was "lucky" I was even able to fall asleep, and I woke up feeling better except for how atrocious humans are. I can't believe someone saved my life just so that I could get tortured in a hospital and told to die in the streets. Just get out of my face. I hate being alive.

Day one AoT

Dec. 1st, 2024 10:30 am
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I finished the first project no problem!!! Day 2 promises to be very challenging, I'm not that great at open triangle twists, so I feel uncertain I'll be able to complete it, but I will try. Somehow, I will feel like if I can complete tomorrow's project, I might be able to finish all of them, but it will probably still feel slightly doubtful until the end even. Worse case scenario, I don't finish everything on time, no big deal!

NDY.
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I'm a little sad that 2024 is ending. There's been goods and bads about this year. Lots of adventure, lots of learning, lots of exercise, more than a month in the hospital.

It already feels like 2025 to me, and I have no idea why. It's like I'm already living in the future.

For several months now, I just feel like I'm running on bonus time. Like I've already done enough for the year, and somehow, I miraculously still have time to do more!

This month is so exciting for the projects to work on.

Next year is sort of filled with mystery. Sometimes I feel ripped off from "regular living" due to how I was raised, and other days, I wonder if I gained something from it. I definitely feel very sorry for a few people that are not myself.

It is true that I'm a major fan of adventure, but sometimes I worry that I will end up investing myself too heavily in it. One day, a group of individuals will get on a craft, and never return to the planet Earth. --at least maybe not for a very long time? lol.

If ever, does it really exist.

I try to ground myself, but keep getting uprooted. I do like the adventure, but dang.

So much of what to come seems like it could be so predictable, and I try to stave it off as best I possibly can.

Ah some of it I embrace, but there are elements that are just so frustrating.

NDY.
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Definitely better than the past few. My neck had some very swollen and painful lumps in it, I have no idea what is being faught off. I tried searching the internet about it, it recommended to see a doctor if persists for 2 weeks... if you were in that much pain and weren't me, you would've sought immediate medical attention. I had bits of a fever, and general sinus headache issues. I wanted the internet to give me a name for what I had, the only thing it recommended was "upper respiratory infection". One night, my breathing was definitely not pleasant, but over all, I would not call what I had as that. Ah well. It's mostly better, just a bit of lingering pain.

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