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Apr. 17th, 2025 08:43 amA cup of coffee ☕️!
Apr. 17th, 2025
AAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!!
Apr. 17th, 2025 07:08 pmBABA YAGA!!!!!
Dang, I'm a wimp not to tell you what I just did.
2 weeks.
That's it.
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Day has been just epic. I feel like I'm 22, at the "right" points. Many folks would argue they aren't right, and I might be inclined to agree. But, it is either a feature or a function of living, that one must do these things, where you think you can't do something, you wonder if you're not supposed to, and maybe you're not, but you do it anyway, because it's living.. it's on the cliff side really.
I talked to the doctors, and they didn't say no, so I did it.
Maybe they're not really experts. One of them checked my heart beat, said they didn't even hear a murmur. I have no idea if they were lying or not. I know I sometimes get abnormal heart beats, but my regular heart beat, I couldn't tell you, it seems fine enough.
Hopefully, everything goes ok.
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Early in the day, we had our standard Thursday meal for lunch. We mostly took it easy, and later in the day went to the FB. Reasonable haul. I got low sugar chocolate chip cookie dough!
I try not to fall too heavily into the holidays, I really don't identify with Christianity so much even though I partially grew up with it. But, my great appreciation for Hina Matsuri helps me appreciate Easter a little more. So, I will probably make cookies for the holiday lol.
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Tomorrow will be another day to go out and eat. Hopefully I don't end up in the hospital before or after that.
In some ways, I would love to see a doctor right about now. I would love to have some more doctor supervision over some things I do recently. But I am trying to work with them. I just wish they would talk to me about the things that I'm thinking about, and not the things that they're looking at on their screens that I'm arguing with them about. The classism is disappointing. I'm exhausted and annoyed.
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You are not better than me because you didn't have heart surgery.
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Even if you are, you know you are wrong to suggest it.
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You want to say something is wrong with my brain? I don't see your proof, and I'm literally trying to listen. You really aren't proving anything.
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I'm tired of heavy levels of disrespect. This species is truly pathetic, despite how impressive it can be in other ways. If you can't level with another in a humanistic manner, I don't know what you are thinking, but I am not your pet.
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I'm excited to go to sleep tonight, but I'm absolutely afraid it's going to be an uncomfortable night, and I'm afraid I'll end up in the hospital again.
Dang, I'm a wimp not to tell you what I just did.
2 weeks.
That's it.
------
Day has been just epic. I feel like I'm 22, at the "right" points. Many folks would argue they aren't right, and I might be inclined to agree. But, it is either a feature or a function of living, that one must do these things, where you think you can't do something, you wonder if you're not supposed to, and maybe you're not, but you do it anyway, because it's living.. it's on the cliff side really.
I talked to the doctors, and they didn't say no, so I did it.
Maybe they're not really experts. One of them checked my heart beat, said they didn't even hear a murmur. I have no idea if they were lying or not. I know I sometimes get abnormal heart beats, but my regular heart beat, I couldn't tell you, it seems fine enough.
Hopefully, everything goes ok.
---
Early in the day, we had our standard Thursday meal for lunch. We mostly took it easy, and later in the day went to the FB. Reasonable haul. I got low sugar chocolate chip cookie dough!
I try not to fall too heavily into the holidays, I really don't identify with Christianity so much even though I partially grew up with it. But, my great appreciation for Hina Matsuri helps me appreciate Easter a little more. So, I will probably make cookies for the holiday lol.
-----
Tomorrow will be another day to go out and eat. Hopefully I don't end up in the hospital before or after that.
In some ways, I would love to see a doctor right about now. I would love to have some more doctor supervision over some things I do recently. But I am trying to work with them. I just wish they would talk to me about the things that I'm thinking about, and not the things that they're looking at on their screens that I'm arguing with them about. The classism is disappointing. I'm exhausted and annoyed.
-------
You are not better than me because you didn't have heart surgery.
-------
Even if you are, you know you are wrong to suggest it.
------
You want to say something is wrong with my brain? I don't see your proof, and I'm literally trying to listen. You really aren't proving anything.
-------
I'm tired of heavy levels of disrespect. This species is truly pathetic, despite how impressive it can be in other ways. If you can't level with another in a humanistic manner, I don't know what you are thinking, but I am not your pet.
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I'm excited to go to sleep tonight, but I'm absolutely afraid it's going to be an uncomfortable night, and I'm afraid I'll end up in the hospital again.