One of my problems with mental illness diagnosises

I keep thinking about how to phrase this, and every here and there, I do such, so here it is.

The devaluation of the patient. Go to therapy and take medication: disability pays for a someone to do such. OK, actually that sounds fine.. but I refuse to apply for disability for mental health issues because my argument is that my physical health problems are greater than my mental health problems, and I wish they were taken more seriously.

But to expand upon this a bit more.. there is also the issue of: ""Who does the doctor serve?" Because I didn't make complaints that led to a mental health diagnosis... I regularly make complaints about random problems that my general health particularly in terms of pain are dealing with. So, are you telling me that my doctor is more concerned with how smart I am, than how much pain I am in? Because MENTAL implies brain, which I think, is supposed to be something that teachers work on, not doctors.

Unfortunately, this breaks down into a militant society scenario, where I just regularly find myself with no resolution.

Turned out to be a pretty great day!

I did about 1 mile of walking, almost surprised I did that much. Last Fall, I did 10 miles in one day, didn't create pain, but my energy level went way down after it. I tend to think that about 10 miles a week is a pretty good goal. I was planning on doing a long walk, because I woke up early, and felt up for it.. but decided to cut it short and headed back early. I woke up feeling pretty great, went for a walk, came back, and instantaneously had this attack of something horrible. I started falling asleep, and I think I have mentioned before this place of "disturbed consciousness" like.. I am falling asleep, but it is painful to do such. It has happened maybe 5-10 times in the past year? I have had a seizure before, and it scares me that I might have a seizure again. And I like to reiterate: I was not born epileptic, I'm not even diagnosed epileptic. Doctors put me on a mental health medicine that gave me an allergic reaction which was a seizure, several years ago. As if my life wasn't horrible enough as an HSR, everything is just regularly getting worse.

Meanwhile, how the hell am I supposed to get these "disturbed consciousness" things to go away? I would love it if they would just go away on their own, but I just have no idea.

So I finally fell asleep again, and it did become comfortable!! I slept for 2 more hours, and then woke up feeling all better, so just a very short and extreme 'not feel well' session.

Spent the day hanging out con mi kazoku. We had a very nice time, I did just a few origami pieces. After departing, I went to the park for a short while. Now it's the end of the day, and I'm just winding down.

Something fun for you: Did you know that HSRs can still drive? I'm blown away by it myself.

I regularly think that there are efforts being made to take my license from me, but I also got my license more than 5 years after my surgery. I'm pretty sure that the police officers that arrested me last year, arrested me because they don't think HSRs should be drivers. I was driving when I was arrested, I pulled over by the side of the road, and they pulled up behind me and arrested me, they also broke my car window. I told them that I was an HSR, and they expressed no concern. Do you have any idea what hell my life is? And they put me in jail for at least 5 days, they are definitely criminals.

I sorta wish I had the mobility program. They made slight efforts to get me on that program recently.. I went to another physical health doctor who continued to mostly discuss mental health, and gave me a mobility form... ah well.

I would prefer to just be healthy, that would be great. But I'm not convinced that science is currently advanced enough for HSRs to return to even 80% of a full health bar. Maybe it has happened for others, but I don't think it has happened for me. Oh well.