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Jun. 8th, 2025 09:13 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sennashi_doreiYesterday, I walked about 3 miles and felt like I was taking it easy! Well, I did what I could to make it a pleasant day, and it mostly worked. I woke up, and super lazed about, didn't do anything at all, all morning long. I managed to make an origami chameleon again, I'm going to try to memorize how to make it. It is very simple in some places, but has a few level up points that are just like tangrams!
By the early afternoon, I had enjoyed my morning very much, but decided that I really should go for a walk. The sky was slightly grim, and there were calls for light showers, but it was not full dark cloud cover! I decided to start off small, and go for a short walk.. I was thinking that I had energy to do much walking, but didn't want to get caught in the rain. So I looped around a few short walks, and then decided to just go for my long walk after all! I thought it might rain at a few points, but it was just cloud cover, and I had a great time.
I could've called the day perfect if the police didn't decide to park out back where I live for a minute, why are they doing this? I had heart surgery, I'm living in pain just about every day, why do I need problems on top of problems? The answer is that I don't, and they are harassing me. They want to be able to go anywhere and do anything while they are working, but if their job is to harass disabled people, then they don't have a job. I'm exhausted.
Dealing with chest pains is so common for me. If I go for a walk, it alleviates. But then I end up with other body aches, and I just enjoy what I can, and it goes ok enough as long as I don't freak out. Not freaking out is not always the easiest thing for me, so that's a pretty big problem. You could call it a mental illness if you want, I definitely actually do want it fixed, but everyone is so interested in arguing my interpretations of what the problem is.
I argue that the heart is an emotional regulator, and mine is slightly out of whack. You can still call it mental illness, I don't care. The heart and the brain are that interconnected, it's no big deal. But the other day, I had a friend argue that the heart is not an emotional regulator: what? This basically just sounds like the chicken and the egg argument. Regardless of which is true, it is a problem, but because I'm stuck on 哲学モード, I have to ask: can it be solved if the source is unknown?
By the early afternoon, I had enjoyed my morning very much, but decided that I really should go for a walk. The sky was slightly grim, and there were calls for light showers, but it was not full dark cloud cover! I decided to start off small, and go for a short walk.. I was thinking that I had energy to do much walking, but didn't want to get caught in the rain. So I looped around a few short walks, and then decided to just go for my long walk after all! I thought it might rain at a few points, but it was just cloud cover, and I had a great time.
I could've called the day perfect if the police didn't decide to park out back where I live for a minute, why are they doing this? I had heart surgery, I'm living in pain just about every day, why do I need problems on top of problems? The answer is that I don't, and they are harassing me. They want to be able to go anywhere and do anything while they are working, but if their job is to harass disabled people, then they don't have a job. I'm exhausted.
Dealing with chest pains is so common for me. If I go for a walk, it alleviates. But then I end up with other body aches, and I just enjoy what I can, and it goes ok enough as long as I don't freak out. Not freaking out is not always the easiest thing for me, so that's a pretty big problem. You could call it a mental illness if you want, I definitely actually do want it fixed, but everyone is so interested in arguing my interpretations of what the problem is.
I argue that the heart is an emotional regulator, and mine is slightly out of whack. You can still call it mental illness, I don't care. The heart and the brain are that interconnected, it's no big deal. But the other day, I had a friend argue that the heart is not an emotional regulator: what? This basically just sounds like the chicken and the egg argument. Regardless of which is true, it is a problem, but because I'm stuck on 哲学モード, I have to ask: can it be solved if the source is unknown?
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Date: 2025-06-08 01:45 pm (UTC)Freaking out is a medical problem. I was born with a heart condition, I had heart surgery, why are the police interested in making an HSR miserable?
If you send a person with a medical condition to jail, you are a criminal. Why? Medical conditions make people freak out, and are solved with medicine, not punishment, this is nothing more than authoritarianism.
You are kidnapping SICK PEOPLE WHO ARE ALREADY SUFFERING AND MAKING THEM SUFFER MORE. What is wrong with you?
Technically the thought that all crimes can be viewed as medical and solved with medicine has European roots. But the problem I'm facing is greatly crimes being committed against me with no justice. What crimes have been committed against me? I was illegally evicted twice: once due to medical discrimination, once due to what the hell is happening? I had all my things stolen from me.
I like to argue that doctors giving injections without concent is a crime, but I'm pro vaccine and probably too stupid to know what I need because I'm sure I'm immuno compromised.. I have no answers other than to hate my life.. you can't threaten medical workers, I want to say this, but what if someone really does something wrong? I have been threatened as a medical worker before, and I just argued that I needed better training, I have no idea why they hired me as a medical worker anyway.
Then I could just try to mention the many times that people have sped up at me in vehicles. I think there are people trying to argue that cars are a firearm and have them removed from sick people on that basis: I practically agree, why thr he'll do I have a car? I wish I had a driver, I wouldn't mind the mobility program, it sucks leaving the house every day wondering if I'll end up in the hospital or jail by the end of the day. The jails are illegal, threatening or actually taking a person with heart problems to jail is a worse wrongness than taking a healthy person to jail.
Sick people need medicine, we are already feccing miserable, I am not having a great time.
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Date: 2025-06-10 12:44 pm (UTC)