My chest hurts a little, argh.

[sennashi_dorei]

I am so worried about my mother, my chest hurts. Yes, anxiety can induce chest pains, and this is anxiety inducing chest pains. I haven't had so many chest pains for a while now, but here they are, and I'm wondering why they are trying to give my mom a heart cath and not me. I really get the feeling she is going to be able to back out of the cath, I feel so sure they have made some mistake. They probably can't read the records and are trying to look at mine. It could go either way here, I mean she's my mom, so she is older than me.. I just had this procedure recently, so if she gets it, not the end of the world, I practically hope she gets one over the next 5-10 years, there is no way for this story to turn out good, I just don't see it. I am so tired of saying things are getting better and then they just turn around. Argh, it just seems like goodness itself is an illusion.