Please let this turn out ok.

[sennashi_dorei]

Mom does have some energy, and is moving around a bit, but she is not walking, which terrifies me. There is a lot in her current care that really reminds me of end of life care, so that is terrifying. But they have her going to rehabilitation tomorrow, and she says she is excited and feels ready for it, and she seems lucid and highly conscious, not super loopy, so that is highly hopeful. But I have never seen her not walking around like this. They are not saying anything that points to end of life, but I have done end of life care for individuals before, and it has been similar.. but she is moving around, so that is a good sign. It's just all so scary.

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[sennashi_dorei]

I am so scared I am never going to see my mom well again.

[sennashi_dorei]

I'm dealing with emotional pains without chest pains.

[sennashi_dorei]

I'm scared that I'm going to lose my mom, but my chest does not hurt. I am an emotional wreck. My mom is not hooked up to machines and it is freaking me out. She doesn't seem well. They say she is going to rehab tomorrow, but it feels like a fantasy to imagine her getting better from here.

[sennashi_dorei]

I feel like the stupidest person on the planet, just recording minute by minute updates, as if these details help or do anything at all. She ate her entire dinner on her own. I can't tell the difference between optimism and whatnot.

[sennashi_dorei]

mom stood up, that's great!