Not doing well.

[sennashi_dorei]

Never ending nightmare land. I don't know how else to describe it. Mom has a busted lip, and I am still worried about her. Not going into details about it, because unfortunately my health problems are flaring up again. I have been walking at least 3 miles every day, but last night.. I made it home, and it was veeeery bad. Super bad chest discomfort. I thought about going to the hospital. I am feeling ok now, but I am tired of everything being never ending nightmares. I do not feel even close to 100% certain that I am going to make it through the year without another major cardiac procedure. I suspect my chances of not getting heart surgery this year are maybe 70% at best. But another heart cath, 50/50. They are not talking about doing another, so maybe I will be wrong about that... but the chest problems are sticking with me, so not really that great at all.

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[sennashi_dorei]

People in my heart surgery group tell me to go get checked out. I think most people in HS groups are closer to post op than me. I get tired of living in the hospitals, I just enjoy my freedom while I have it, and go only if it is absolutely necessary or I have an appointment.

[sennashi_dorei]

Past 2-3 years have been way more frequently necessary, not great. But basically just had a 2 month great run.

[sennashi_dorei]

Good news about last night: the chest discomfort alleived before I was even falling asleep, and falling asleep last night actually turned out to be comfortable. But I had about 1-2 hours of bad chest discomfort.