I joined the club.

[sennashi_dorei]

I swear I can do easily anticipate so many crisises. It is a heart surgery thing. There is just only so much that I can do. I just have a long life of crisis after crisis. I don't stage it, I just naturally enter unfun times way easier than everyone else.

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[sennashi_dorei]

Awkward note: I have taught origami in person at least 5-10 maybe more times now. I love it because I love origami, but it is not easy. It has been very high pressure, difficult. If you are really TEACHING someone, and not just doing origami with someone else who does origami.. it is like "how cooperative are the students"/how good are my explanations/ what actually makes for a good classroom. I will probably teach again sometime, maybe soon, but my chest can feel horrible while I teach. I start to wonder: "why would people do this to me?". But then I remember that I am choosing it, it is what I want to do. This will probably not be fun to read.

"worst fears"

[sennashi_dorei]

It is impossible for me to see this turn out good. I want to be proven wrong, but given everything that has happened so far, it seems impossible.