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Society feels like it is currently saying: "You have no one to blame, but yourself, for the things that other people are doing to you."

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Creating kind of a parallel like what I learned about Japanese culture, and trying to maintain it, finding it difficult, and really looking at canccel culture, how easy it is just to lose someone. I've found a few folks to talk to, and am finding jobs to apply for. It never really seems like the right answer, like maybe it really is to not work. I was very happy working in my 20s, in Japan. I was glad to be able to move into the medical field in Maine, but I don't think giving direct healthcare is what I should be doing right now, especially when it feels like healthcare is needed to the levels it is sometimes. Ethics in hospitals just isn't there? My heart surgeon got it: didn't want me to be stuck at doctors offices all the time: once every 5 years I was recommended, very reasonable. But I know where my health is at, and I know it's necessary to see doctors more often than that. I wish doctors were more willing to work WITH me rather than ON me. I am being treated like an animal in the hospitals, and I just wish that weren't happening. Want to give me an injection? Talk to me first.. I have always considered it more ethical to talk to someone than to just stab them. Both situations have happened to me, but I am being detained against my consent, isn't that reason to be upset? Just imagine, someone came around, and locked you up, wouldn't you be upset? But you're not there, it's not happening to you, and you probably are immune, because you don't have the health problems that I do. But arguing for unethical treatment of humans with health problems is not a good stance, and I'm definitely witnessing too many folks taking it.