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thanks for the bday wishes!
Jan. 28th, 2025 08:25 amYeah, it wasn't too bad, mostly just uneventful.
I've been thinking about how much to use this platform, and especially for posting. Using FB more again.. it's just so easy, though sometimes I think about trying other platforms, I don't often like signing up for new programs.
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Health report of January:
Waaaaaay better than last January of last year. Small sharp bursts of pain are still happening, they are new in my life: If you think I got heart surgery, and everything was horrible even after the surgery, you are wrong. I had mostly a very reasonable time after my surgery, but last year was unbelievably horrible, and it was a year of several in a row that weren't great, but last year was seriously the worst.
What I really hate is how non rational people are. My life is already cruelty for some problems I have, and everyone acts like it's ok to put through worse, basically meaningless-ly.
I am not really super happy about being alive, because I don't feel like I have enough to be happy about. This is not a good life, and it easily could be better with stronger societal inclusion: like a job, or at least an income. I should absolutely be on disability. I sometimes like that I don't have the label, but my pain levels particularly... I can't understand why it is sometimes considered acceptable for my life to be what it currently is and has been for a while now.
I've been thinking about how much to use this platform, and especially for posting. Using FB more again.. it's just so easy, though sometimes I think about trying other platforms, I don't often like signing up for new programs.
---
Health report of January:
Waaaaaay better than last January of last year. Small sharp bursts of pain are still happening, they are new in my life: If you think I got heart surgery, and everything was horrible even after the surgery, you are wrong. I had mostly a very reasonable time after my surgery, but last year was unbelievably horrible, and it was a year of several in a row that weren't great, but last year was seriously the worst.
What I really hate is how non rational people are. My life is already cruelty for some problems I have, and everyone acts like it's ok to put through worse, basically meaningless-ly.
I am not really super happy about being alive, because I don't feel like I have enough to be happy about. This is not a good life, and it easily could be better with stronger societal inclusion: like a job, or at least an income. I should absolutely be on disability. I sometimes like that I don't have the label, but my pain levels particularly... I can't understand why it is sometimes considered acceptable for my life to be what it currently is and has been for a while now.
