Ah, the times.

I woke up this morning, and I was achey and sore. It reminded me of being at Ike's place. I moved there begrudgingly, but had a mostly great time other than my health.

That house had the feel of age. Record player: 45s from the 40s, maybe earlier. We'd listen sometimes, too. A nice piano in the living room. The sweet dogs.

But those walls, they had the feeling of age in a scary, but also, somehow pleasant way. It was a sense of atmosphere that was comfortable.. except! You reeeaaally had to wonder if there was mold in those walls: it was like an old farm house in the middle of the burbs.

I still think there might have been mold in that house. That's where my health seriously started to deteriorate. I got pneumonia while I was there. That remains to be the only time I've ever had pneumonia.

My legs were the worst. I was just starting to work out more than ever before. 30-45 minute walks 2-3 times a day, many days a week.

My legs started hurting *before* even my first walk. I went to a doctor, and they said I had a vitamin d deficiency, so they put me on that.

Mi madre recommended walking, so I tried it out, and it was really lifting my spirits, and honestly, I felt like it was helping me feel better.

The way my legs felt in those early days, was remembered this morning... but once I started moving around a little bit, it just went away! Happy.

I'm going to attempt to take today as a mostly break day, since I've been walking so much... but!!!! I'm almost out of the paper that I need for a project ><. I feel like a paper mill, kinda hate that.

Thankfully, everything I make, can also be made with metal, too. So... if folks want to complain about my paper usage... I'm actually wanting to try the metal... just.. it might take a bit to get there, we'll see how that goes.

But paper can be recycled.. so maybe it's not as bad as I think? I have no idea. I took up origami for so many reasons.

I'm trying to look forward to the day... but there's still too many problems, oh well.

Ah.

Feeling better after an afternoon nap. I could go out after all if I wanted, but it is a windy day, it doesn't quite feel worth it.

I get so stressed, so easily sometimes. I've already explained a tight feeling in my chest that I call stress. I've been dealing with that a lot recently. Sometimes it sort of radiates upwards. Then, I might have a deeper feeling in the chest than the tightness.

Can stress be a feeling that isn't the chest tightness? I can remember being stressed out before this chest tightness started, still recognizing it as stress, and not having chest tightness, I think.

Currently, the chest tightness is regular. I want to say with certainty that I remember experiencing stress without the tightness, but if I try to remember a time where I had stress without the tightness: I remember the tightness... but that is possibly because I am currently dealing with slight tightness.

As an exercise to try to figure it out, I try remembering a time where I didn't have stress, like trying to remember a time that I felt well...

I can see it as a way to try to bring back the well feeling-ness, too.

It's weird to try to remember feeling well: when you don't feel well.

You're certain it happened, you want to tell yourself: "I remember it so clearly!" ..It's basically clear and certain. Writing definitely sometimes helps me feel better, even if just a little... but if I'm not feeling well and I try to remember feeling well, sometimes it can feel a little hazy.

今週末は楽しかった。

また勉強続きに関して考えています。

運動は最近の趣味です。

歌に聞くのも楽しいです。

折り紙は楽しくて、練習いっぱいです。

今はエネルギがあるけれども、休憩にしょうと思います。もしかしたら、少し散歩しょうかな。

皆さん、良い日々を。

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The Spring is amazing.