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Jun. 8th, 2025 09:13 amYesterday, I walked about 3 miles and felt like I was taking it easy! Well, I did what I could to make it a pleasant day, and it mostly worked. I woke up, and super lazed about, didn't do anything at all, all morning long. I managed to make an origami chameleon again, I'm going to try to memorize how to make it. It is very simple in some places, but has a few level up points that are just like tangrams!
By the early afternoon, I had enjoyed my morning very much, but decided that I really should go for a walk. The sky was slightly grim, and there were calls for light showers, but it was not full dark cloud cover! I decided to start off small, and go for a short walk.. I was thinking that I had energy to do much walking, but didn't want to get caught in the rain. So I looped around a few short walks, and then decided to just go for my long walk after all! I thought it might rain at a few points, but it was just cloud cover, and I had a great time.
I could've called the day perfect if the police didn't decide to park out back where I live for a minute, why are they doing this? I had heart surgery, I'm living in pain just about every day, why do I need problems on top of problems? The answer is that I don't, and they are harassing me. They want to be able to go anywhere and do anything while they are working, but if their job is to harass disabled people, then they don't have a job. I'm exhausted.
Dealing with chest pains is so common for me. If I go for a walk, it alleviates. But then I end up with other body aches, and I just enjoy what I can, and it goes ok enough as long as I don't freak out. Not freaking out is not always the easiest thing for me, so that's a pretty big problem. You could call it a mental illness if you want, I definitely actually do want it fixed, but everyone is so interested in arguing my interpretations of what the problem is.
I argue that the heart is an emotional regulator, and mine is slightly out of whack. You can still call it mental illness, I don't care. The heart and the brain are that interconnected, it's no big deal. But the other day, I had a friend argue that the heart is not an emotional regulator: what? This basically just sounds like the chicken and the egg argument. Regardless of which is true, it is a problem, but because I'm stuck on 哲学モード, I have to ask: can it be solved if the source is unknown?
By the early afternoon, I had enjoyed my morning very much, but decided that I really should go for a walk. The sky was slightly grim, and there were calls for light showers, but it was not full dark cloud cover! I decided to start off small, and go for a short walk.. I was thinking that I had energy to do much walking, but didn't want to get caught in the rain. So I looped around a few short walks, and then decided to just go for my long walk after all! I thought it might rain at a few points, but it was just cloud cover, and I had a great time.
I could've called the day perfect if the police didn't decide to park out back where I live for a minute, why are they doing this? I had heart surgery, I'm living in pain just about every day, why do I need problems on top of problems? The answer is that I don't, and they are harassing me. They want to be able to go anywhere and do anything while they are working, but if their job is to harass disabled people, then they don't have a job. I'm exhausted.
Dealing with chest pains is so common for me. If I go for a walk, it alleviates. But then I end up with other body aches, and I just enjoy what I can, and it goes ok enough as long as I don't freak out. Not freaking out is not always the easiest thing for me, so that's a pretty big problem. You could call it a mental illness if you want, I definitely actually do want it fixed, but everyone is so interested in arguing my interpretations of what the problem is.
I argue that the heart is an emotional regulator, and mine is slightly out of whack. You can still call it mental illness, I don't care. The heart and the brain are that interconnected, it's no big deal. But the other day, I had a friend argue that the heart is not an emotional regulator: what? This basically just sounds like the chicken and the egg argument. Regardless of which is true, it is a problem, but because I'm stuck on 哲学モード, I have to ask: can it be solved if the source is unknown?
