Unhappy with discrimination.

[sennashi_dorei]

My chest has not had bad pains at all yet this year, I'm doing what I can to keep it that way. I get levels of discomfort, and I still deal with short bursts of pain. The short bursts of pain, even though I think that I should be treated rightly as a proper member of society, even under decent circumstances around that, I still suffer with struggles. I sort of don't care if it's called mental illness sometimes.

Sometimes, I see mental illness as a synonym for hormonal related issues, and also issues that exist perhaps on a microscopic level: but still have a way of affecting the bigger picture: how possible is that? I have no idea. But my problems in my chest, these bursts of pain, often in response to ill treatment. I have no idea what to do with them.

Things to look forward today: another usual day. Definitely things to look forward to. The saddest part of my living existence: having to think about heart surgery every single day. I would still like to be a heart surgeon one day, I wonder if that will ever happen. I see it as far in the future, and I hardly study, but I do actually study in small bits. My exhaustion levels, and how cruel humans are to one another, make me ask, why is anyone supposed to bother.

NDY.

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[sennashi_dorei]

Interesting note: I was treated rudely in an ambulance the other day, it did not result in bursts of chest pain like can happen sometimes. I was almost passing out though. Technically, ending up in pain when someone insults you is not exactly a strong thing, so is it actually better? I'm so confused. I'm just trying not to have bad experiences, and that's just going so-so.